Recently on a message board that I frequent, a friend of mind metioned that is seems every time she tries to get closer to God, thigns begin to go wrong and everything gets worse. I can quite easily relate, as I've had similar experiences in my life, all too many times in fact. It actually started right after I got saved back in July of 'o5. Before that, everything was ok, not spectacular or anything, but not really on the low side either, afterwards it seems things started to fall apart. Later on in life, when I tried to get back into reading my Bible and praying and diong my devotions and all that, it'll go good for a little while, but then, again, it all seems to coem crashing down. When it rains it pours, and my word can it pour. It's just one things after another with no break in between sometimes. I finally get over this or work through that just to be smacked in the face with yet another depressing problem. I wish I could say I felt like Thousand Foot Krutch's song "Falls Apart" with the lines "It falls apart, from the very start, it falls apart, seems like everything I touch, falls apart, everything around me falls apart, when I walk away from You" but I seem to be just the opposite. It all falls apart when I get close to God, and life works out fine away from Him, or so it seems. I feel like I'm living what we've been going over the past coouple weeks un Sunday school in Psalm 73, where Asaph saw the wicked and how much they prospered while those who feared God dealt with so many problems, because not only am I feelign those problems, I'm feeling that easiness and simplicity away from Him.
But, when I considered all of this more in depth, I came upon an idea that I think very much to be the truth. It's not that everything goes wrong because I'm trying to get closer to God, it's that He was waiting for me to get closer to Him and become stronger before I was faced with those trials. It's not Him forsaking me when I run to Him, it's Him protecting me until I do make it into the Strong Tower that is His love. I can't help but feel that if I had gone through some of those trials when I hadn't been closer to Him, I might not have been able to make it through them.
--SF
9.30.2007
9.21.2007
Bible Class
Whoot for pretyped entires! Since I can't really access this site very well from home, pretyping these entries is the best way I can find to get my ideas down when they come to me and to prevent me from having to waste time that should be spent working typing out my entries. So, I'll probably be doing that from now on, no that anyone cares since no one reads this, but w/e, I feel the need to explain myself to you nonexistent people nevertheless.
Now, what to talk about...there were so many good subjects in my head yesterday, but now I can't seem to recal any of them. There was one I really wanted to discuss with as many people as I could, but I'm really not sure what in the world it was. Seems like it would have had something to do with schoolwork or something like that, but idk. Well, I just remembered one topic I could discuss, so I'll go there. It doesn't apply to as broad a range at the topics I forgot, but it's still worth discussing with the none of you that probably read this.
Okay, so yesterday in Bible class we got to discussing the book that we use ((again)). For the most part, the students in the class don't like the book, and alot of them don't do the work that they're supposed to do in it. The general concensus is that we ditch the book and teach directly form the Bible, but our teacher won't do that. I personnally don't like the book we use that much, and it hasn't seemed to help me spiritually in the least, but I do the work nevertheless because it's just like any other schoolwork to me. When I thought this and heard our teacher complaining about how it seems none of us are actually interested in the Bible, it made me realize something. Because of the way the curriculum works, we get the answers for the questions in our books directly out of the Bible, and because so much time is spent on us filling in those answers, and little time spent talking about it, I feel that the Bible is becoming little more than just another textbook to us. I know that's what it's felt like to me in that class sometimes. I think that because we're using it just like an answer book and focusing entirely on getting the answers we have to have to make a decent grade on the quizzes we're neglecting to actually think about it and we don't get alot of time to discuss what it really means, whereas if we did thigns like we did in our junior high Bible class, in which the teacher would tell us exactly what we needed to know for the text and our grade was pretty much determined by our willingness to memorize what he told us to, we would have much more time to spend actually discussing the lessons and possibly getting something useful out of them. That way, while the answers would be coming from the Bible, it would seem much less like just another textbook to throw in our lockers and more like God's Word.
Now, what to talk about...there were so many good subjects in my head yesterday, but now I can't seem to recal any of them. There was one I really wanted to discuss with as many people as I could, but I'm really not sure what in the world it was. Seems like it would have had something to do with schoolwork or something like that, but idk. Well, I just remembered one topic I could discuss, so I'll go there. It doesn't apply to as broad a range at the topics I forgot, but it's still worth discussing with the none of you that probably read this.
Okay, so yesterday in Bible class we got to discussing the book that we use ((again)). For the most part, the students in the class don't like the book, and alot of them don't do the work that they're supposed to do in it. The general concensus is that we ditch the book and teach directly form the Bible, but our teacher won't do that. I personnally don't like the book we use that much, and it hasn't seemed to help me spiritually in the least, but I do the work nevertheless because it's just like any other schoolwork to me. When I thought this and heard our teacher complaining about how it seems none of us are actually interested in the Bible, it made me realize something. Because of the way the curriculum works, we get the answers for the questions in our books directly out of the Bible, and because so much time is spent on us filling in those answers, and little time spent talking about it, I feel that the Bible is becoming little more than just another textbook to us. I know that's what it's felt like to me in that class sometimes. I think that because we're using it just like an answer book and focusing entirely on getting the answers we have to have to make a decent grade on the quizzes we're neglecting to actually think about it and we don't get alot of time to discuss what it really means, whereas if we did thigns like we did in our junior high Bible class, in which the teacher would tell us exactly what we needed to know for the text and our grade was pretty much determined by our willingness to memorize what he told us to, we would have much more time to spend actually discussing the lessons and possibly getting something useful out of them. That way, while the answers would be coming from the Bible, it would seem much less like just another textbook to throw in our lockers and more like God's Word.
9.13.2007
Inevitably...
Of course, since I failed to make any note of the topics that were already in my mind that I wanted to discuss here, alot of them have slipped my mind. However, I can still recall one or two that I fully intend on discussing when I get time to type up my post about them. Part of the reason I'm waiting is because I don't see much use in posting an entry that will not be read, and since I have not had this blog very long and because of the difficulties in accessing it at times, I have yet to get around to finding the people I know on this site to read it.
--SF
--SF
9.11.2007
Lol
Well, this is interesting. The filter on our computer apparently blocks all blogspot blogs. I tried to view my pastor's blog, and it was blocked, as is mine. According to the filter, they're both blocked due to "nudity or sexual content" which neither of the blogs contains in any way shape or form that I am aware of. So, I can only view this from time to time on other people's computers, so my template updates will be pretty slow and sporadic for now until I get everything set how I want it.
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Well, seeing as how this is my first blog post here, I don't have too much to say. I've had a few other blogs in the past, but I end up neglecting most of them after a little while, so we'll see how this one turns out. I made this blog for the purpose of talking about some of the deeper things I'd think about, rather than just the mundane events I normally discussed in previous blogs on other sites. I will, however, consider makign a second blog here for such topics, but I still need to messa round with this one and see if I like it or not first.
I've already got a few ideas of things I want to post about, and eventualy I'll probably end up discussing all the numdane stuff I never planned on talking about, but we'll see how that all goes.
--SF
I've already got a few ideas of things I want to post about, and eventualy I'll probably end up discussing all the numdane stuff I never planned on talking about, but we'll see how that all goes.
--SF
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